|your turn to update you skinny bitch
||[Feb. 23rd, 2003|12:55 am]
Sometimes its strange to think about how much can change over the course of just a few years. How you can just grow up and mature without even realizing it. For most of my teenage life, I've been obsessed with Korean music, and for good reason. It was cute, catchy, and it was the "in" thing in highschool being that my highschool was dominated by Korean people. So, naturally, I embraced the Korean culture as I was constantly bombarded by it. I really had no sense of identity for my own culture as a lot of the Chinese people at my school openly embraced the Korean culture as well. Chinese music and culture just didn't seem very appealing to me at all. For most of those years, I actually resented Chinese stuff and I'm embarassed to admit that I had wished that it was as cool as Korean stuff was. I had no pride, whatsoever, for who I was and where I came from..
Things have definitely changed the past few years, especially this past year. When I think about how obsessed I was with Korean music, to the point where I knew more about it than my Korean friends, I feel disgusted at who I was. It's fine for a non-Korean to like the music, but to be so obsessed with it is just ridiculous. Especially b/c I was so out of touch with my own culture. If I had been able to at least speak Mandarin, it wouldn't have been that bad. But, I've finally changed and I've finally realized how important it is to be in touch with your own culture. I think I realized just how little I know about my heritage one time when Nick asked me about it...I may be very poor at Mandarin, but my goal is to become fluent in it some day. I have to thank my Jenny because she helped me realize all this even though she used to be even more kpop crazy than I was, which is no small feat haha ;)...I try to learn a new Mandarin phrase from her everyday if I can. I've also started listening to some Chinese music to learn that way...I do have to admit that Chinese music isn't as catchy as Kpop is since it's mostly all slow songs..
I think that economically and culturally, China/Taiwan is really going through a "dark age" right now..With so many of us on the planet, you'd think we'd have more influence in world affairs, technology, entertainment, etc..but as far as I'm aware, most of the good things that come out of Asia are from Japan and Korea is starting to do really well too...I mean, Japan is really famous for its cars, technology, music, video games..and the list goes on. Korean is starting to emerge as well but I really can't name one thing that China/Taiwan is good at..the only thing i can think of is martial arts flicks and bootleg software..It's also really sad to see some Chinese music groups trying to copy Korean music. I mean, is it really that hard to be original and create an identity and style for themselves? But I really do think that sooner or later some Chinese artist has to come along and revolutionize their music industry the same manner HOT did for Korea. But until then, I guess Jay Chou will have to do...